Tag: God

Everyday Happy: A Whistle While I Work

stained_heartI was listening to a Podcast this last week that talked about doing everything for God with JOY! It said, no matter what it was, do it 100% and do it for God. Whether you’re the CEO of a major corporation or a stay-at-home mom, do your “job” to the best of your ability and do it for our Father!

This devo really got to my heart! As a stay-at-home mom I always have plenty to do. I choose to be home with my kids. I love being able to be with them, but at the same time, day after day of the same routine gets old. And I, like most people that do the same thing day after day, sometimes do so grudgingly. It’s easy to get into a bad habit of doing it, just to have it done. In this, I am guilty.

So anyway, after hearing this Podcast I decided that I would do the laundry, WITH PURPOSE! Ha! The whole time I was doing it I was talking to God!

“Lord, I know you said to do this laundry for YOU! Lord, I know that it should be done 100% for YOUR glory, Lord I HATE LAUNDRY!! 🙂

That was the first chore I chose to do that day. I went on to each chore that day, “trying” to do my “best.” I just couldn’t get into the swing of it. I know, I felt like I should have it more together than this. I mean, in the big scheme of things this should’ve been the EASIEST thing that I could’ve been called to do. I love my family, why couldn’t I just enjoy doing it!? I mean, I love them. I love that I’m able to be home with them each day, so WHY COULDN’T I JUST GET IT DONE WITH JOY!? I kept on trying at it all week…

This morning, I noticed a definite change! While cleaning out the cabinets and rearranging the kitchen I realized I was WHISTLING worship songs! My heart was happy and I was joyful while cleaning the kitchen. After that, after realizing that I CAN enjoy every chore, while doing it for the glory of God, I did it ON PURPOSE the rest of the day! (Even while doing laundry!!)

I LOVE how the Lord works! It never ceases to AMAZE ME!

Today I was happy about working 100% for God, even in my own small way! Find something that needs to be done, no matter the size of the task, and set your heart to doing it for our Father! Honor Him. ❤

 

Comparing & Insecurities

The devil whispers to us through our negative thoughts. I’ve always been a woman of insecurity. I am not thin like the models in magazines. I don’t have the best hair, fashionable clothes, and most of the time I don’t wear makeup.

Insecurity happens when we listen to the devils voice inside our heads. The voice saying that we aren’t good enough. We don’t know what we’re doing. We’re a bad parent, spouse, friend…These thoughts transform into insecurity and insecurity is a very close cousin to fear!

This is the devils favorite game to play with us! If he can wiggle into our thoughts, he can make you start with the, “what ifs.” Once that game starts it’s hard to kick that habit. It’s a game that I played, unknowingly, for most of my life! It’s hard to step out with courage and faith, if we have constant feelings of insecurity and negative beliefs in ourselves.

I recently read about insecurity in a devotional called, “No More Perfect Moms.”

Insecurity says, “I can’t.”

Confidence says, “I can because God will show me how!”

The easiest way to stop these feelings of insecurity is to realize that God is the main key to REAL confidence! Learn to look at yourself and your life through the eyes of how God sees you. You are beautifully and wonderfully made. Loved eternally by your one and true Creator. God doesn’t make junk!

Celebrate who you are, you were made for a purpose! You are enough! Learn to concentrate on your strengths. God endows each person with their own skills, gifts, and strengths. Yours are not meant for anyone else just as the strengths of others aren’t meant for you.

I was always comparing myself to other women. Thinking if I had what she had I’d finally be “happy.” If I could just get my kids to act better in public, I’d be less stressed out. If my husband would just spend more time with me I’d be happier. If I dressed a certain way I’d feel better. Constantly, comparing myself to others and what they have. Never being thankful for what I have…and I’ve been blessed with plenty!

Sometimes the devil is sneaky and I would compare myself to others without even really realizing it was happening. Comparing, I’ve learned, is a very slow process and causes real life problems. Before you know it, you lose touch with what you have. You lose gratification in your real life. The satisfaction with what you have erodes and you are left with feelings of jealousy and insecurity.

Comparing my life to the life of strangers on TV or in magazines or even friends was causing me to be discontent with my REAL life…My husband, my kids, and with myself.

The devil is a liar. A sneaky liar. He wears you down over time until you don’t remember what God has blessed you with.

The only way to stop this behavior is by leaning on Christ. Counting your blessings and submerging yourself in The Word. By doing these things I’ve begun to turn from the evil whisperings of the devil. Trust God with all of me. I know now that God has given me exactly what I need for now. I know that God has a plan for my life and the life of my family. There is so much freedom in believing in the TRUE love that God has for me.

Action: Do you ever feel insecure? Do you or have you ever had a problem with comparing yourself to others? I’d love to hear your story!

Be blessed. Keep your eyes on our Father! ❤

Devotional – Exodus 4:10

Today’s devotional was about insecurities and about doubting God.

The verse was Exodus 4:10

“Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”

In this verse, God had called upon Moses to speak to the Pharoah about letting the Israelites out of Egypt. Instead of Moses leaning on, trusting, and having faith in the Creator, he doubted.

Insecurities can be a good thing if they call you to move and change. Left unchecked insecurities can cripple you and leave you paralyzed.

I know how insecurities can paralyze. I spent years and years thinking I wasn’t good enough. I let others treat me badly because I was insecure in myself.

The so called “pretty girls” intimidated me because their world of fashion and style was completely foreign to me. I’m a country girl at heart. I love fishing, hunting, and being outdoors. I never cared much about makeup or designer clothes, so when I would have to converse with women in fancy clothes and high dollar shoes it would make me feel small, uncomfortable, and downright clumsy with nervousness.

It’s nothing that those women did intentionally. It was my own issue. My own insecurity. The evil one spilled lies to my heart that I wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t pretty enough. I wasn’t thin enough to be around women like that. Now I know better! ❤

In God’s Love I’m learning that He doesn’t give you more than you can handle. Sure, life can be uncomfortable, but my God promises to carry me if I’m too weak to walk on my own.

God believed in me before I was conceived. He made me. Everyday of my life he is molding me closer and closer to the person He has always intended me to be!

What a thought, right? He must love me very much to take so much time and effort to make me who He thinks I should be. I wasn’t an accidental experiment. He made me exactly how He wants me. God does not make mistakes. Every thought and motion is deliberate!

So, in the big scheme of things, it doesn’t matter what others think. It doesn’t matter how I feel. What matters is what God feels and he loves me through and through.

Dear Heavenly Father: Help me to see myself as You see me! I am but a human, I struggle and fall short. Help me Lord to not doubt you, but to always trust in You. Help me Lord to keep my eyes on You and care only about what You think of me, instead of what others think of me. In Jesus name, Amen!

 

 

Learning About God’s Love

peach_rose1As a child I went to church with my grandparents. My grandmother went to Church of Christ and my granddaddy was a deacon at the local Assembly of God. Each of them taught Sunday school, but they were two totally different types of churches.

I was baptized in a Calvary Baptist church when I was a teenager, then my daddy passed away and I haven’t been back since. That is nearly 20 years.

I’ve always known that God existed, but I wouldn’t have called myself a Christian. In fact, I still don’t. To me, I haven’t earned that right yet, but I’m working on it. For now, I’m a believer/lover in Christ, but not yet educated enough to be a Christian. I’m not sure if that makes sense to you, but for now it’s where I’m at.

Since I’ve gotten older I’ve felt a craving or a yearning to know God more. I’m just starting my journey to the Almighty, but I’m thirsty to know more.

I think losing my daddy was the biggest reason for me leaving the church. I was a teenager when he passed and I was just so angry. I’m not sure if I was ever angry at God, but definitely confused, hurt, and afraid.

I spent a whole lot of years just angry at the world. Roaming around. I felt like I couldn’t breathe if I sat still too long and so I just kept running. I ran from the people that loved me the most, friends and family. I ran away from every responsibility I had. I ran away from what I knew was right.

I ran from God and hid.

I hid in drugs. I hid in alcohol. I hid in fake friends. I hid in partying, but most of all, I hid in anger and frustration and denial. Self-loathing. Misery. Destruction.

It took me YEARS to fight my way back to myself. When I finally did get clean, I was full of guilt and shame for what I had put my friends and family through for so long.

I thought, ”

How can anyone ever forgive me when I can’t forgive myself?

I thought I wasn’t deserving of forgiveness. I felt that I would never be able to hold my head up and look anyone in the eyes again. I felt beat down. I felt broken. I felt alone.

Through scripture I learned that you cannot do anything to earn God’s love. It’s given freely, unconditionally, and without us being deserving of it in the first place! That one realization changed everything! A everlasting spark lit me up on the inside! I remember the first time I read that…I was blown away! I cried! I smiled! I sighed a great sigh of relief!

I remember the prayer right after thanking Him for loving me although I was a simple flawed human that made mistake after mistake for YEARS!

I still make mistakes. I still struggle. I still fall short and disappoint my Father, but I know with all my heart that I will never be beaten down, broken, or alone again. I know God’s love.

My God is fierce.
My God is Almighty.
My God loves me, unconditionally.

A Prayer For My Kids

 

Dear Lord, 

I love the kids you’ve blessed me with raising. Each one has their very own personality, likes & dislikes. Each one has their very own way of doing things. So different, yet so much alike.

Father help me to be the best type of mother for them. A mother that is patient with them when it seems that they will go on forever telling that *SAME* story all over again. Help me Lord to see YOUR forgiveness of me in their eyes when they have done something they shouldn’t have. Help me Lord to lift them up in LOVE and not talk from a place of anger. Help me to see that they are still babies and even after that, human. 

Although these 3 beauties aren’t from my body they are from my heart. Help me Lord to remind them each and everyday that they are loved beyond measure. Lord help them to see that although I’m not the mother that birthed them they will always have a home, wherever I am. Father help to open their hearts and realize that no matter what they’ve done their parents will always love them.

The world is a scary place. Protect my children from those that wish to do them harm; whether that is family or friends. Help me teach them Lord that they should only look to you for approval. I know that they will be tempted to go astray, but right their path Lord.

I know there will be times that I let them down or disapoint them. I am human and make mistakes daily. I’m not here to be their friend, but to raise them up according to your will. I’m here to make sure they bloom and grow into the little people I can already see on the inside. 

Thank you Lord for your grace. Your master plan. Your beautiful gift of forgiveness. Please keep my kids safe and watch over them each time they leave my sight. 

In Jesus Name,

Amen!

Everyday Happy: Being A Mom

My kids were “inherited” or at least that’s how I explain it to people that don’t know us.

My husband and I met and dated when we were teenagers. That was nearly 20 years ago. Then life happened and we both met, married, and then divorced. During this time my husband was blessed with 3 kids. Currently they are: 8, 12, & 14

Being a fulltime step mom to 3 VERY different kids is a tough job. Step moms don’t always get the best kind of reputation, but I’ve hung in there. Refused to give up on them although there were moments when I thought of running for the door. We’ve weathered the worst of storms together. Now, we are a family. A very close family I might add, even though the devil hasn’t given up completely with his shenanigans.

No matter what I’m their mom and they ARE mine! You probably won’t ever hear me utter the word step mom again. It’s nothing personally against their birth mom, I don’t mind sharing one bit, but I am their mom too…not a step.

I guess I always wanted to be a mom, have children of my own, but I am glad that God had a better plan for my life. These kids needed a woman in their lives to love them as a mother does. As I said before, it hasn’t always been easy, but we’ve become stronger through it all.

My favorite times are when we are all being silly together. Listening to them laugh. Watching them smile. Playing a game of Monopoly for the millionth time because it’s Turtles favorite board game. Listening to Zane talk about getting older, girls, and sports. Tucking Emma in each night and saying prayers. To me, these are the most important parts of being a mom. These things are the things that make me a happy mama!