Category: God’s Love

Love Like Jesus Does

winter_sunsetI’ve heard all my life how much Jesus loves me. From the beginning, into eternity. The first Bible school song I ever learned was, “Jesus Loves Me.” I used to sing it all day long. To schoool and home. To church and home. i would belt out that song as a child and it would fill my heart with happiness.

What I’m just learning is HOW Jesus loves me. He loves me when I follow Him. He loves me when I stray. He loves me when I love others. He loves me when I do not. His love for me and others is eternal. Meaning, not just as I walk this earth, but into forever.

I’m also learning as an adult, for the first time, that I did absolutely NOTHING to gain his love. Although I’ve never been worthy of His love, He loves me just the same. I have spent years and years hating myself. Feeling that I wasn’t worthy of any type of love, yet here He is with his mercy & forgiveness.

As a person, I’ve been a decent one. I’m not a murderer. I’m not a thief. We as a society have become so tolerant of misbehavior that we make excuses for sin. But the Bible explains that there is no greater sin than another sin. A sin, is a sin, is a sin. I thought I was a good person because I hadn’t killed anyone, but my daily sins keep my soul as black as a murderers. Pride, jealousy, hatred, unforgiveness. These are all things that I’ve been guilty of throughout my whole life, like most other people.

Though I fail my Father everyday, I know that through Jesus Christ I am forgiven. If Jesus can forgive me the things I’ve done and love me through it all, who am I to be unforgiving? Who am to judge? Who am I to hold hatred in my heart?

Lord, Help me to cling to You each day! Put my hand in Your hand. Help me to walk with You everyday of my life. Help me know the TRUE meaning of loving like Jesus loves! Help me to let go of these earthly feelings and only look to YOU for answers and acceptance. I know Jesus died for me. I know that he was resurrected! I know the battle that He fought for me. I know the pain He felt for me. Lord, help me to LOVE like Jesus does. In Jesus name, AMEN!

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Praying With My Kids

Nothing in this world feels as good as seeing your kids bow their heads and pray to our Heavenly Father.

This week I’ve been making sure to take time to pray with my kids. All of us in a circle, holding hands, as a family. One unit. It’s powerful people!

It feels my heart to the point of overflowing to talk to my kids about what they want to pray about. Who they want to pray for. What they want to give thanks for from that day.

Some day they will pray with their children, hand and hand, as a family. Someday I will get to take my grandchildren to church with me. All because of the habits and traditions we are learning and making today.

Tonight our oldest wanted to pray about his exams he’s taking tomorrow. Our middle son wanted to pray for his tooth that has been fixed several times. (He broke it at the end of school last year on a scooter) Our youngest surprised me tonight with saying that she wanted to pray for us all to be happy every day. They also prayed for all of our family to join us at church soon. They prayed for their birth mother, as we do every night. They each were filled with thanks also: good weather, family time together, life.

Each child is so different, yet so much alike. They each have amazing hearts. They think of others. They think of each other. I really believe I was blessed with the BEST kids a mom could ever ask for. Thank you sweet Lord for blessing me with more than I deserve. Thank you for my husband and my children.

I’m a simple woman. I enjoy a simple life. I love simple (yet overwhelming) times with my children.

Yesterday evening my two youngest told me that they have started praying before they eat at school. My youngest said that she prayed before her spelling test yesterday (she scored a 105!)

I love that the changes that I started making in my own life are spilling over into the lives of my children. That they are believers & doers & learning to walk with Christ! This fills my heart! I am one joyous Mama!

I know that raising kids is hard. I know that they won’t always stay on track and at times it will be difficult to recognize them through all the hormones that are racing around inside their bodies (ATTITUDE ALERT!) but I know without a doubt that God will always bring them back.

Be blessed! Keep your eyes on our Sweet Jesus! ❤

Comparing & Insecurities

The devil whispers to us through our negative thoughts. I’ve always been a woman of insecurity. I am not thin like the models in magazines. I don’t have the best hair, fashionable clothes, and most of the time I don’t wear makeup.

Insecurity happens when we listen to the devils voice inside our heads. The voice saying that we aren’t good enough. We don’t know what we’re doing. We’re a bad parent, spouse, friend…These thoughts transform into insecurity and insecurity is a very close cousin to fear!

This is the devils favorite game to play with us! If he can wiggle into our thoughts, he can make you start with the, “what ifs.” Once that game starts it’s hard to kick that habit. It’s a game that I played, unknowingly, for most of my life! It’s hard to step out with courage and faith, if we have constant feelings of insecurity and negative beliefs in ourselves.

I recently read about insecurity in a devotional called, “No More Perfect Moms.”

Insecurity says, “I can’t.”

Confidence says, “I can because God will show me how!”

The easiest way to stop these feelings of insecurity is to realize that God is the main key to REAL confidence! Learn to look at yourself and your life through the eyes of how God sees you. You are beautifully and wonderfully made. Loved eternally by your one and true Creator. God doesn’t make junk!

Celebrate who you are, you were made for a purpose! You are enough! Learn to concentrate on your strengths. God endows each person with their own skills, gifts, and strengths. Yours are not meant for anyone else just as the strengths of others aren’t meant for you.

I was always comparing myself to other women. Thinking if I had what she had I’d finally be “happy.” If I could just get my kids to act better in public, I’d be less stressed out. If my husband would just spend more time with me I’d be happier. If I dressed a certain way I’d feel better. Constantly, comparing myself to others and what they have. Never being thankful for what I have…and I’ve been blessed with plenty!

Sometimes the devil is sneaky and I would compare myself to others without even really realizing it was happening. Comparing, I’ve learned, is a very slow process and causes real life problems. Before you know it, you lose touch with what you have. You lose gratification in your real life. The satisfaction with what you have erodes and you are left with feelings of jealousy and insecurity.

Comparing my life to the life of strangers on TV or in magazines or even friends was causing me to be discontent with my REAL life…My husband, my kids, and with myself.

The devil is a liar. A sneaky liar. He wears you down over time until you don’t remember what God has blessed you with.

The only way to stop this behavior is by leaning on Christ. Counting your blessings and submerging yourself in The Word. By doing these things I’ve begun to turn from the evil whisperings of the devil. Trust God with all of me. I know now that God has given me exactly what I need for now. I know that God has a plan for my life and the life of my family. There is so much freedom in believing in the TRUE love that God has for me.

Action: Do you ever feel insecure? Do you or have you ever had a problem with comparing yourself to others? I’d love to hear your story!

Be blessed. Keep your eyes on our Father! ❤

Devotional – Exodus 4:10

Today’s devotional was about insecurities and about doubting God.

The verse was Exodus 4:10

“Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”

In this verse, God had called upon Moses to speak to the Pharoah about letting the Israelites out of Egypt. Instead of Moses leaning on, trusting, and having faith in the Creator, he doubted.

Insecurities can be a good thing if they call you to move and change. Left unchecked insecurities can cripple you and leave you paralyzed.

I know how insecurities can paralyze. I spent years and years thinking I wasn’t good enough. I let others treat me badly because I was insecure in myself.

The so called “pretty girls” intimidated me because their world of fashion and style was completely foreign to me. I’m a country girl at heart. I love fishing, hunting, and being outdoors. I never cared much about makeup or designer clothes, so when I would have to converse with women in fancy clothes and high dollar shoes it would make me feel small, uncomfortable, and downright clumsy with nervousness.

It’s nothing that those women did intentionally. It was my own issue. My own insecurity. The evil one spilled lies to my heart that I wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t pretty enough. I wasn’t thin enough to be around women like that. Now I know better! ❤

In God’s Love I’m learning that He doesn’t give you more than you can handle. Sure, life can be uncomfortable, but my God promises to carry me if I’m too weak to walk on my own.

God believed in me before I was conceived. He made me. Everyday of my life he is molding me closer and closer to the person He has always intended me to be!

What a thought, right? He must love me very much to take so much time and effort to make me who He thinks I should be. I wasn’t an accidental experiment. He made me exactly how He wants me. God does not make mistakes. Every thought and motion is deliberate!

So, in the big scheme of things, it doesn’t matter what others think. It doesn’t matter how I feel. What matters is what God feels and he loves me through and through.

Dear Heavenly Father: Help me to see myself as You see me! I am but a human, I struggle and fall short. Help me Lord to not doubt you, but to always trust in You. Help me Lord to keep my eyes on You and care only about what You think of me, instead of what others think of me. In Jesus name, Amen!

 

 

Learning About God’s Love

peach_rose1As a child I went to church with my grandparents. My grandmother went to Church of Christ and my granddaddy was a deacon at the local Assembly of God. Each of them taught Sunday school, but they were two totally different types of churches.

I was baptized in a Calvary Baptist church when I was a teenager, then my daddy passed away and I haven’t been back since. That is nearly 20 years.

I’ve always known that God existed, but I wouldn’t have called myself a Christian. In fact, I still don’t. To me, I haven’t earned that right yet, but I’m working on it. For now, I’m a believer/lover in Christ, but not yet educated enough to be a Christian. I’m not sure if that makes sense to you, but for now it’s where I’m at.

Since I’ve gotten older I’ve felt a craving or a yearning to know God more. I’m just starting my journey to the Almighty, but I’m thirsty to know more.

I think losing my daddy was the biggest reason for me leaving the church. I was a teenager when he passed and I was just so angry. I’m not sure if I was ever angry at God, but definitely confused, hurt, and afraid.

I spent a whole lot of years just angry at the world. Roaming around. I felt like I couldn’t breathe if I sat still too long and so I just kept running. I ran from the people that loved me the most, friends and family. I ran away from every responsibility I had. I ran away from what I knew was right.

I ran from God and hid.

I hid in drugs. I hid in alcohol. I hid in fake friends. I hid in partying, but most of all, I hid in anger and frustration and denial. Self-loathing. Misery. Destruction.

It took me YEARS to fight my way back to myself. When I finally did get clean, I was full of guilt and shame for what I had put my friends and family through for so long.

I thought, ”

How can anyone ever forgive me when I can’t forgive myself?

I thought I wasn’t deserving of forgiveness. I felt that I would never be able to hold my head up and look anyone in the eyes again. I felt beat down. I felt broken. I felt alone.

Through scripture I learned that you cannot do anything to earn God’s love. It’s given freely, unconditionally, and without us being deserving of it in the first place! That one realization changed everything! A everlasting spark lit me up on the inside! I remember the first time I read that…I was blown away! I cried! I smiled! I sighed a great sigh of relief!

I remember the prayer right after thanking Him for loving me although I was a simple flawed human that made mistake after mistake for YEARS!

I still make mistakes. I still struggle. I still fall short and disappoint my Father, but I know with all my heart that I will never be beaten down, broken, or alone again. I know God’s love.

My God is fierce.
My God is Almighty.
My God loves me, unconditionally.